trifecta

i seem to be drowning in a sea of three.

three for the days wasted
three for the nights that fell
three for misery and sadness caused
three for toil and exhaustion
three for kinship and blood
three for hours rested

i am anxious for steady progression
for four walls to envelope me
for comfort in something that lies beyond three.

codependency

it's keeping in touch.
it's knowing what's up.
it's making the love.

it's bringing it all together.
it's keeping me sane.
it's probably harmful,
but it's making me happy.


god damn it.

it's been years since we were born.

i've been watching the clock
go round for hours
i don't know which is more
painful--trying to fathom
the length of eternity or knowing
that you feel so completely alone.

i'm sorry.